I Have Opinions

The title pretty much says it all. I want very badly to make this happen but an itouch isn’t the easiest way to type anything

I’m a logical thinker but occasionally I take a trip in my brain to a place where I pace, franticly screaming some undefinable emotion at the back of my eyeballs. It is occasionally debilitatingly distracting. Some call it having strong emotions. I call it an altered state, or panic attack, caused by a chemical imbalance in my brain. Fear, anger, sorrow, love, wanting VERY badly to cause some douchebag pain. In these times my tarot deck helps me logic through and brings me peace. Contradiction mich? Illogical behavior cancelling out illogical behavior

When I have to call someone, in particular one I barely know, my heart and mind race and blood preasure increases, sweaty palms. Classic symptoms on a panic attack. I have social anxiety and calling people in the interest of making friends freaks me out. Im better at relaxing when im face to face. Calling people seems so rude to me! Knocking on doors is just as bad. I always feel as though I have interrupted something very important or that for some reason anger is waiting for me on the other end of the line or the other side of the door.

Communication via technology is so impersonal and so much that is said does not come across. How can I know if i’ve gone too far if I can’t see a persons face. How to know when I need to recover. I’m so incredibly dense that I have to take most electronic communication at face value. My ability to read between the lines is nonexistent. I like long drawn out letters between friends. I either need adequate time to express myself or to be able to see a face.

I finally figured out to access this thing. I don’t have any readers yet, so I’m going to wish myself good luck! The plan so far is to be posting reviews, my own music and art, and finally to showcase my ranting abilities. This should be fun